Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
My Internet Life...
What has gotten into me this month? Three postings? That has to be a new record or something. I'm not even sure why I keep this up. I suppose it is to keep connected with some fabulous people I've encountered over the past ten years or so...
Maybe it was longer than that....
My internet experience started back before there were these things called browsers. You had to type Unix commands to access sites. But I wasn't interested in the growth of the internet I was only on to play a MUD! I sat in front of my monochrome monitor on my little 286 computer making my way through the zones and player killings of (insert tense music, 'dun, dun, dun'), The Final Challenge. In this little universe I came up with my two most favorite MMRPG and Internet handles, (Triston and Venthor). I was the first evil character to ever max out on a multi-classed character (level 50 or 30-30-30). While I wasn't one of the first people to play that mud, I certainly was in the very early stages of the mud. I haven't played much, but a few years ago I did have the opportunity to go to a few get-togethers down in Chicago. Those were a blast.
Since I'm pretty much a geek, this whole internet thing fascinated me. I heard you could use pictures and stuff. So I left the command line world and found myself inside a browser. I don't remember which browser I lost my internet virginity on, but I found myself wanting more and more. Hell I even found my job at Trek through the internet.
I never got pulled into the sub-culture of the web. I tried to stay inside of windows and its programming as I hopped from job to job. I always dabbed in web programming, downloaded a few napster songs back in the day and found lots of pictures of nakkid women. Ah the age of information at my fingertips was exciting.
Then EverQuest came along and I got sucked back into playing an on-line game. This game enthralled me the first time I picked up the box at the store. It was everything I dreamed about when I was 15 and playing dungeon and dragons (old school style...paper, pencils and imagination). The graphics wowed me (no pun intended). I ate the game up and it consumed me worse than any other game in history. And I met even more amazing people in that game. I also met the one woman who got away. But I would never trade that time I spent with her and I owe that game to being able to meet Mic. And there were other people who I became closely connected too. Spending hours waiting for things to appear or to fight through dungeons has a way of bring people together. But people move on and lives change in time. Some people were smart and gave the game up knowing that their lives were consumed by a virtual world. I hung on. Not to really play the game, but to stay close to those I cared about.
After I got divorced I think the game became less important to me. I found myself happy with who I was and I changed some things about what I was. My career became more important than trying to level a cartoon. I tried to start relationships. I failed, but I tried. I made a few mistakes because I wasn't patient, but I learned from it all. (I still wasn't getting enough sex. Maybe it was all the computer games I was(am) playing. Nah.....)
And of course there was World of Warcraft. While I enjoyed the game, it never became what TFC or EQ did. I spent my fair share of time there. Met some nice people, but I never allowed anyone there to get too close. I tried to keep it what it was...a game.
Now I'm working for a company and I'm the Lead Programmer in designing an Intranet Web Application. It is pretty cutting edge stuff. While the project managers have no clue on how to manage a project like this, it is exciting to see what we are trying to make a web site (browsers, data base and such do...).
Now I've become the geeky hands on nerd of the web. I know more than I ever thought on putting together a web application. Oh, I dabbled and 'knew' enough to put together some light-weight web pages together, but this is different. I hope I can convince the people I work for that I know what I'm doing and they should listen, but when they write the paychecks you let them direct the traffic to a certain point.
However something in the future scares me. Conan...it looks freakin' cool. But who has time to play that? By the way, I've finally mastered a few 'expert' songs in Rock Band...
I have a feeling when I'm in my retirement home. I'll be the only one there still playing video games. I'm such a ner...geek.
cya laterz
moi
Maybe it was longer than that....
My internet experience started back before there were these things called browsers. You had to type Unix commands to access sites. But I wasn't interested in the growth of the internet I was only on to play a MUD! I sat in front of my monochrome monitor on my little 286 computer making my way through the zones and player killings of (insert tense music, 'dun, dun, dun'), The Final Challenge. In this little universe I came up with my two most favorite MMRPG and Internet handles, (Triston and Venthor). I was the first evil character to ever max out on a multi-classed character (level 50 or 30-30-30). While I wasn't one of the first people to play that mud, I certainly was in the very early stages of the mud. I haven't played much, but a few years ago I did have the opportunity to go to a few get-togethers down in Chicago. Those were a blast.
Since I'm pretty much a geek, this whole internet thing fascinated me. I heard you could use pictures and stuff. So I left the command line world and found myself inside a browser. I don't remember which browser I lost my internet virginity on, but I found myself wanting more and more. Hell I even found my job at Trek through the internet.
I never got pulled into the sub-culture of the web. I tried to stay inside of windows and its programming as I hopped from job to job. I always dabbed in web programming, downloaded a few napster songs back in the day and found lots of pictures of nakkid women. Ah the age of information at my fingertips was exciting.
Then EverQuest came along and I got sucked back into playing an on-line game. This game enthralled me the first time I picked up the box at the store. It was everything I dreamed about when I was 15 and playing dungeon and dragons (old school style...paper, pencils and imagination). The graphics wowed me (no pun intended). I ate the game up and it consumed me worse than any other game in history. And I met even more amazing people in that game. I also met the one woman who got away. But I would never trade that time I spent with her and I owe that game to being able to meet Mic. And there were other people who I became closely connected too. Spending hours waiting for things to appear or to fight through dungeons has a way of bring people together. But people move on and lives change in time. Some people were smart and gave the game up knowing that their lives were consumed by a virtual world. I hung on. Not to really play the game, but to stay close to those I cared about.
After I got divorced I think the game became less important to me. I found myself happy with who I was and I changed some things about what I was. My career became more important than trying to level a cartoon. I tried to start relationships. I failed, but I tried. I made a few mistakes because I wasn't patient, but I learned from it all. (I still wasn't getting enough sex. Maybe it was all the computer games I was(am) playing. Nah.....)
And of course there was World of Warcraft. While I enjoyed the game, it never became what TFC or EQ did. I spent my fair share of time there. Met some nice people, but I never allowed anyone there to get too close. I tried to keep it what it was...a game.
Now I'm working for a company and I'm the Lead Programmer in designing an Intranet Web Application. It is pretty cutting edge stuff. While the project managers have no clue on how to manage a project like this, it is exciting to see what we are trying to make a web site (browsers, data base and such do...).
Now I've become the geeky hands on nerd of the web. I know more than I ever thought on putting together a web application. Oh, I dabbled and 'knew' enough to put together some light-weight web pages together, but this is different. I hope I can convince the people I work for that I know what I'm doing and they should listen, but when they write the paychecks you let them direct the traffic to a certain point.
However something in the future scares me. Conan...it looks freakin' cool. But who has time to play that? By the way, I've finally mastered a few 'expert' songs in Rock Band...
I have a feeling when I'm in my retirement home. I'll be the only one there still playing video games. I'm such a ner...geek.
cya laterz
moi
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Hell week
From every direction, from every experience this past week was hell. To even begin to describe it would call forth demons from the underworld to laugh and mock at my misery. I'd start to complain about work and personal life, but I already hear the cackling of the evil beasts lurking in the background, so suffice it to say it sucked.
How do you turn a bad time/situation around? Without taking a header into a brick wall that is, because while the pain might feel 'good' I don't think that is an ever lasting solution. I think the best way is to surround yourself with friends. Only certain kinds of friends will do, because those at work will only remind you of the turmoil you are constantly facing. The only kinds of friends that can get you out of a terrible set of circumstances are those who can make you laugh and feel good.
These friends are the ones you want to hang around with anyways. It is quite possibly the reason your week has been so terrible. Which usually leads to your significant other. If this person is giving you shit, chances are you cannot escape your problems. What do you do then? You need to explore your circle of friends that you two are mutually friends with. Why? Because if you go hang out with your friend(s) you are tempted to 'talk up' the problems you are having with that person. Since they are with you and it would cause a relationship faux pas to bitch about that person within earshot. Even if you didn't think so, the hell you thought you were living with will get worse.
So you've excluded your partner, your co-workers and your exclusive friends it leaves those who know both of you and that can have some fun. I don't think it creates a blissful existence, but a window of time exists where you can forget about your troubles. It may even give you a shove off in the right direction as you glean that maybe the problems you are having don't seem to be as bad as you first thought.
Or you can come home after a few hours and realize that not only does your life suck, but it's worse than you thought.
cya laterz
moi
How do you turn a bad time/situation around? Without taking a header into a brick wall that is, because while the pain might feel 'good' I don't think that is an ever lasting solution. I think the best way is to surround yourself with friends. Only certain kinds of friends will do, because those at work will only remind you of the turmoil you are constantly facing. The only kinds of friends that can get you out of a terrible set of circumstances are those who can make you laugh and feel good.
These friends are the ones you want to hang around with anyways. It is quite possibly the reason your week has been so terrible. Which usually leads to your significant other. If this person is giving you shit, chances are you cannot escape your problems. What do you do then? You need to explore your circle of friends that you two are mutually friends with. Why? Because if you go hang out with your friend(s) you are tempted to 'talk up' the problems you are having with that person. Since they are with you and it would cause a relationship faux pas to bitch about that person within earshot. Even if you didn't think so, the hell you thought you were living with will get worse.
So you've excluded your partner, your co-workers and your exclusive friends it leaves those who know both of you and that can have some fun. I don't think it creates a blissful existence, but a window of time exists where you can forget about your troubles. It may even give you a shove off in the right direction as you glean that maybe the problems you are having don't seem to be as bad as you first thought.
Or you can come home after a few hours and realize that not only does your life suck, but it's worse than you thought.
cya laterz
moi
Thursday, February 14, 2008
V-day
So it's that day. The dreaded day that never seems to work out for me. No matter what I do or how romantic I am I seem to fall flat on my face. Sometimes I'm chasing the wrong woman and no matter what I do, it isn't enough. Or it could be possibly I'm with someone, but I always expect more than I get. That is probably my fault not hers.
I've thought more about writing something serious again. However, work is so overwhelming I don't have time to sleep let alone anything else. I hope this is all worth it. I won't bore you with the details, because its just more work on top of other work. The problem is by the time I come home I don't want to do anything creative. I'm beyond spent. I don't think I've worked less than 60 hours a week since September. Okay, maybe the two weeks around Christmas and New Years were a bit less. Still I've been on a killer pace every other week.
How have your V-day's been? Are you ready to run off to Key West with me yet? Not that I'd get much interest, but it is a usual thought in the back of my mine. Espcially this winter. It has sucked!!!
Speaking of running away...I wonder what type of woman I would want to escape with. A woman with a bit of age around the corners who can't get enough of sex. Or a 20 something young woman who can't stop, full of energy and of course can't get enough sex. I sense a theme here. Maybe its that last condition, despite age or much anything else. I've always thought that if I did something like that. I'd get cursed with a ding-bat that can't think of anything but herself. A strange curse, a beautiful woman who intelliectually could give a box of rocks a run for the money.
Did I say I'm tired of winter yet???
Well time for this drive by post to sputter by...
cya
laterz
I've thought more about writing something serious again. However, work is so overwhelming I don't have time to sleep let alone anything else. I hope this is all worth it. I won't bore you with the details, because its just more work on top of other work. The problem is by the time I come home I don't want to do anything creative. I'm beyond spent. I don't think I've worked less than 60 hours a week since September. Okay, maybe the two weeks around Christmas and New Years were a bit less. Still I've been on a killer pace every other week.
How have your V-day's been? Are you ready to run off to Key West with me yet? Not that I'd get much interest, but it is a usual thought in the back of my mine. Espcially this winter. It has sucked!!!
Speaking of running away...I wonder what type of woman I would want to escape with. A woman with a bit of age around the corners who can't get enough of sex. Or a 20 something young woman who can't stop, full of energy and of course can't get enough sex. I sense a theme here. Maybe its that last condition, despite age or much anything else. I've always thought that if I did something like that. I'd get cursed with a ding-bat that can't think of anything but herself. A strange curse, a beautiful woman who intelliectually could give a box of rocks a run for the money.
Did I say I'm tired of winter yet???
Well time for this drive by post to sputter by...
cya
laterz
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